I had a very long conversation with God, through my tears. I so want Emma to live a full life. Everytime we come back to the hospital, I am so scared that she isn't going to leave. I am so terrified that one time I won't be taking her back home. THis is such a HUGE burdon to live with. I have pounded my fists at God so many times, I have cried and screamed so many times to the point that I just don't have the energy anymore.
But then I remember my life verse:
"These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world." -John 16:33
I have to believe that He loves her more than I do. I have to believe that He has a plan and a purpose for this. I have to believe that if/when He takes her home, He
will take care of those who loved her so deeply here on earth. I pray for her healing on the earth, but realize shortly after my prayers that she may not be healed this side of heaven, but she will be made whole on the other side of earth.
That is a tough pill to swallow for a mother.
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