I need reminders as to why I am working. And sometimes, I look at my kids, and realize that they are the reason. It's not money, it's not 'glory', it's not even self-fulfillment (though I do receive some self-fulfillment even if I get no money or glory LOL). It is, most definitely, because of the knowledge that kids like Emma and Micah are coming home to families.
And nights like tonight when I'm tired and it's been a week full of unimaginable issues with paperwork and different families with difficulties that I've had to step in on more than normal, I sometimes need the reminder.
But then, getting on to a blog or facebook or another avenue where people openly vent their frustrations with different areas of their own lives including their perceived status of our available help... it can knock a person right back to the "why do I do this?" question pretty quickly.
I think, more than anything else, that if you are going to serve in ministry, if you are going to help people who aren't going to necessarily like everything that you have to say (such as when their documents are wrong... again...), or if you are going to openly share about your life, family, or beliefs... that you have to know that you know that you know that you are following Christ first and that no one's opinion of you or your activities or family can be more important than that. Otherwise, it could be downright discouraging sometimes.
PS- a Patrick update- he's doing great, is a sweetheart, and we're enjoying him! He had several 'potty accidents' overnight for a few nights but tonight successfully deposited it in the proper porcelain commode, so I am hopeful that he's now adjusted a little more and is settling in! He's also sharing his "true colors" and is trying new tactics with us and in trying to find ways to make trouble. It's almost like he's just a typical 6 yr old boy. Oh, wait, he IS! :) His family is doing well, and you can read an update at www.lyndishupp.blogspot.com if you'd like to follow their journey!